Saturday, June 13, 2009
To start off this blog entry:
I am very proud of myself. It has been 13 days without a single cigarette.
I decided to quit on a whim and I am surprised that I have made it this far. I wanted to quit but I didn't really realize my will power in the situation. So that's it. Almost two full weeks and counting.
The con to this is that I have shut out the rest of my life in order to focus on this task. I hardly hang out with my friends, I don't call my family often anymore, I am very moody, I coughed up some gnarly shit, I have no desire to do anything really. I also have completely neglected someone that I am dating and that I care about. I feel like I have to just be by myself as much as possible and focus on the most important thing of all: my health.
But at the same time, it's not healthy to be doing anything that I'm doing in the process of quitting. So today I am taking the steps to fix all of that. I hate talking about 'feelings' though so this is totes going to suck.